I don’t care if this feeling is temporary, or if this feeling is long term, but I do know that whatever the outcome of this is, I want to remember how I feel right now.
You are one of a kind. I don’t say that in a “You’re a champ! Keep doing life awesome, bud.” I mean it in a way that says you make me feel things that I never expected to feel in any sort of form. I don’t just look at you and see good looking or attractive. I look at you and see strength, and frailty. I look at you and see courage and fear. I look at you and see kindness and warmth. Loyalty and honesty. Laughter and humor. Tenderness. Compassion. Joy. Love. I look at you and see a man after God’s heart. A man who is seeking with so much diligence to follow God the best He can. Being real about the stumbles and road blocks that seem to outdo him sometimes. A man who trust that God is greater than anyhing that he could do. A man who isn’t afraid to be himself. A man who is willing to lay down his life for his friends. I can look at you and see the whole world. I can look at you and feel every emotion at once.
When you look at me or talk to me, I don’t feel like Chelsea, I feel like I can do anything or be anything I want to be. I feel like life is achievable when you’re in it.
So, yes. I may be crazy. And this could end in a tear fest filled with so much despair. But the time I have gotten to spend with you has been worth far more to me then we will ever spend apart.